"She's just waiting for the summertime, when the weather's fine
She could hitch a ride out of town
And so far away from that low down, good for nothing, mistake making fool
With excuses like, baby, that was a long time ago
But that's just a euphemism if you want the truth he was out of control
But a short times a long time when your mind just won't let it go."
Does anyone else feel like they are the only person that doesn't have it together?
That you're kind of just faking everything in the hopes that one day it will all click?
I feel so incredibly lost.
I feel like everyone else has these great long-term plans that
have been festering in their lives since they were small children,
and were asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?"
My answer was different every single time someone asked me that.
Except for a few years when I really wanted to be a vet.
And then I didn't.
And I did my school and I went to college, and everyone is still
asking me, "What do you want to do with your life?"
"What are your plans for the future?"
"Are you going to be a teacher?"
"Where do you want to live when you leave home?"
Hey there folks.
I don't know.
I don't have any deep seated dreams for myself.
Until I finished school, my entire existence revolved around making it through the week.
Just one more test, one more class.
And then I graduated and that ended.
And I felt the absence of any dreams.
Shouldn't I have some?
I mean, at this point, anything would be great.
Anything to give me an answer to that barrage of questions,
anything that makes me seem less prepared for my life as an adult.
And I searched, and profiled, and job-compatibility tested.
And yet, nothing.
The stupid test said an office job would suit me.
I work in an office right now though,
and I can't imagine doing it long-term.
I don't have any stellar talents, any athletic greatness that would
set me apart or give me definition from the crowd of average people.
So what do I do?
This isn't a rhetorical question people.
I don't have the answer.
This isn't one of those blog posts where I set out and then answer my own
question, and the entire first half was really just written in retrospect.
Those are cool though.
Basically the only thing I have going for me is being done with college.
Don't belittle college, sorry guys.
If you are in college, don't quit!
Even if you have no idea what you will do when you are done, don't quit.
I'll go all "Facing the Giants" on you, just don't quit.
So, you and me.
We got this.
We'll figure this out somehow.
Just keep going. You won't stumble over anything great
if you sit at home and wonder about what your life holds.
At that rate, you're looking at Netflix binge records, and stale air.
"Well summer came along and then it was gone and so was she
Not from him because he followed her just to let her know
A dream's a dream
And all this living's so much harder than it seems
But don't let your dreams be dreams
You know this living's not so hard as it seems
Don't let your dreams just be dreams...."
-Jack Johnson, Dreams be Dream